Sleep at Night
sometimes that's the toughest thing to do
And in this world with all the anger and nasty news and evil people in power and people supporting the evil people in power and life getting harder for most when life should be getting easier for everyone and there’s global warming and there are pedophiles and there is war and my friend got an infection in his knee and there are kids that are really sick and and and I really want to vent to someone… Scream it out…
and I’m tired and I’m trying to be there, present, for the kids and my friends every day. In every moment.
Sometimes sleep at night is what we really need. With an empty brain. MT.
But really - I just want to punch something.
(no effects, btw… that’s just how it came out.)
And so here we are.
I am grateful for today. The sunrise. The warm weather in February. The lovely run with friends and bad puns about vegetables. The nap I had today. The ability to make cookies. The wisdom to know how to do a stew filling from scratch for some, hopefully, tasty hand pies that will be finished tonight. Thankful for the friend I visited this afternoon and the three very kind people I met that all seem like they could be my friends. Smart friends. Smart friends are good to have.
I am grateful for the checker and bagger at Trader Joes that were cheery and asked me how my day was and I listed it all for them only to realize, hey, my day has been pretty darned good. Pretty darned good.
Is ruminating always a bad thing?
Hmm…
There have been times in my life where I’ve thought about different jobs I might have. TK and I started brewing beer when we were in high school. For a while I thought it would be cool to run a bar with really good beer. Then I thought about the drunk customers, and how they’re getting home, other potential problems. I don’t think I could in good conscience encourage drinking… If something were to happen due to my negligence, perceived or real, I would not sleep at night.
Coffee shop? I could do that. A drug - but really the opposite. But then there are the beans. I would have to make sure the beans were fair trade. Yup.
In the business world I was involved in a dot.com ecommerce company years ago. I enjoyed the challenges the job provided. I like to get things done. Eventually I rose through the ranks and ended up in the senior staff meetings. Meetings. Lots of meetings. Talking about things I did not want to know. Personnel issues, raises, new hires… yeah no. I don’t want to know. I don’t want to learn secrets I have to keep. Not sleeping at night. I asked off the senior staff so I could get back to work. I still sometimes wonder at the type of person it takes to actually want to be in those senior staff meetings. I also didn’t like feeling like the company I was working for was adding nothing to society - but that’s a different thing.
Working with kids? Love it. I feel like I am adding to society. When I hear back from them years after they graduate I feel even more like I am adding, at least, to their lives. Helping them find confidence. Wisdom. Morality. While they are in my classes I am a person in power. I hold that power sacred. I am honored to have it. I can not imagine being a person in power and taking advantage of them. Yet, we have people in power that are perfectly willing to do so. It sickens me and it does make it hard for me to sleep at night. Just knowing they exist. I’ve read a lot about the grooming that pedophiles do, the methods they use… The level to which they plot… premeditate their evil. It sickens me but I know I need to know. I am a person in power. A person that needs to be watching. Preventing. A person that hopefully the children will trust and talk to so that something can be done.
Evil people in power? How did you get there with no morals?
How do you sleep at night?
I hope, we, as a society, remember our power and fight the way we should.
Rotten parts can be removed. They need to be removed and held accountable and questioned as soon as possible.
Do we really believe that the Epstein files are the only files? That Epstein is the only controller? That these things have stopped because of the current, highly volatile, political, situation? Every moment we delay empowers those that continue. Emboldens them. There are still closed doors.. yet we are ignoring the ones that are open. Shame on us. How open do they have to be before we actually do something?
I’m sure part of the current delay is to hide that it is still going on. To protect the heinous and evil individuals. And it is probably going strong. Sigh.
Go get them now. The door is open. The house is on fire.
In case you forgot, we are capable of going after people in power that have raped our youth. . .
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Settlements_and_bankruptcies_in_Catholic_sex_abuse_cases
And yes, like with the Catholic Church, this will be a major blight on our country. On the human race, really. But we can move forward. We can learn. We can become better. But only if we remove the rotten parts immediately and be truthful about what we let happen. Please.